I understand that. Saying too much, knowing things you shouldn't ... Being distrusted by those who you called friends.

[ she sighs, letting her gaze fall to the lilies. ]

I apologize. I should have made it clearer, before. Where and when I come from ... the loops are over. The wings, my bow, these ribbons... they and the memories they represent are all I have left of the one whose sacrifice marked the end of them. I didn't have this kind of magic when I was still going back.

[ she just somehow has it now, the nature of it changing upon her entry to the new universe, because she's not good at letting go. ]