[ Haha... ha. So no, in essence. At least. Maybe not like that. ]
There's someone I hate very, very much, who hurt someone I love. I thought he wanted to change, so I wanted to give him that chance, and he used it to--
[ (you see a flash of brightness in mind you see a hand reach out and grab someone small you see)
Siffrin inhales harshly. ]
... To betray our expectations, and intended to kill that someone to "teach me a lesson" about stopping him short of victory. [ (you don't know if you can face him again but you have to) ] I looped back before it happened, but it still did in that timeline no one remembers. Not even him.
[ It's a stark contast to many other conversations, pulled away from themselves and focus remained on the person before them. But therein lies the reason they mention it at all:
Because Siffrin, cautious as can be, believes Hwylryn better than the person who'd betrayed their hope.
... Another step forward, and like the apparent nonsequitors Hwylryn had given as bits of stories before, so does Siffrin branch off of this. ]
I was set to travel... well, just to... wander, after we saved the country. I'm... scared, of never seeing my family members again, of losing them like I did my home. [ (Orphaned by the world, you recall.) ] They all have something they want to do, and I don't. No plans, no thoughts, just... back to being on my own.
... But Raha offered me a future, [ pained as Siffrin sounds about it; it can't ease the grief they feel about their family members entirely, but it helps a little. to know he does. ] So... even if it's a hassle, even if... I'm scared, and it's hard... I want to step forward.
[ But Siffrin also sincerely wants to break the cycle and fails, too. Again, it cannot erase nor ease everything entirely -- but it helps, a little. And maybe that help will make it easier to try something different one of these loops, once Siffrin's certain, once they know. ]
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[ Haha... ha. So no, in essence. At least. Maybe not like that. ]
There's someone I hate very, very much, who hurt someone I love. I thought he wanted to change, so I wanted to give him that chance, and he used it to--
[ (you see a flash of brightness in mind you see a hand reach out and grab someone small you see)
Siffrin inhales harshly. ]
... To betray our expectations, and intended to kill that someone to "teach me a lesson" about stopping him short of victory. [ (you don't know if you can face him again but you have to) ] I looped back before it happened, but it still did in that timeline no one remembers. Not even him.
[ It's a stark contast to many other conversations, pulled away from themselves and focus remained on the person before them. But therein lies the reason they mention it at all:
Because Siffrin, cautious as can be, believes Hwylryn better than the person who'd betrayed their hope.
... Another step forward, and like the apparent nonsequitors Hwylryn had given as bits of stories before, so does Siffrin branch off of this. ]
I was set to travel... well, just to... wander, after we saved the country. I'm... scared, of never seeing my family members again, of losing them like I did my home. [ (Orphaned by the world, you recall.) ] They all have something they want to do, and I don't. No plans, no thoughts, just... back to being on my own.
... But Raha offered me a future, [ pained as Siffrin sounds about it; it can't ease the grief they feel about their family members entirely, but it helps a little. to know he does. ] So... even if it's a hassle, even if... I'm scared, and it's hard... I want to step forward.
[ But Siffrin also sincerely wants to break the cycle and fails, too. Again, it cannot erase nor ease everything entirely -- but it helps, a little. And maybe that help will make it easier to try something different one of these loops, once Siffrin's certain, once they know. ]