You understand far more than you want to admit. Helping everyone out with their issues, making them feel more free and closer as a whole, the atmospheres at snack time far more light and... like a family, a family you chose, a family you don't want to leave and don't want to leave you--
Each and every time, you go through the steps. You know it doesn't get you any closer.
You help Mira find her own way of changing, without changing. You know what she needs to hear.
You help Odile learn more about familytales, an unknown history. You share an understanding of being "outside".
You help Bonnie overcome their frustration at not being able to help more, without putting themselves in danger. You never blamed them a day in your life.
You...
...
Isa didn't need help, only wanted your time. You look forward to it the most.
But you know there's no progression, when you help them out. All it is... is for your own sick pleasure, to be loved for a moment, to be deserving of that love. To repay their kindness at first, and then to take advantage of the fact you can. You wonder if Homura ever felt the same, or if she was better than you.)
Siffrin's thoughts are silent and many in the wake up Homura's words, and their hand leaves the flower to rest in their lap as they get comfortable. ]
Wishes are tricky things. [ Something they both know, something they can both agree on. ] There'd... never be a day, that she wouldn't sacrifice herself, and so... you were stuck. Becoming stronger each time, but never strong enough to stop the inevitable. It always, always, had to be her who was left. Who could stop it.
[ The softspoken grief of understanding lines his words, because-- yeah. Yeah. ]
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You understand far more than you want to admit. Helping everyone out with their issues, making them feel more free and closer as a whole, the atmospheres at snack time far more light and... like a family, a family you chose, a family you don't want to leave and don't want to leave you--
Each and every time, you go through the steps. You know it doesn't get you any closer.
You help Mira find her own way of changing, without changing. You know what she needs to hear.
You help Odile learn more about familytales, an unknown history. You share an understanding of being "outside".
You help Bonnie overcome their frustration at not being able to help more, without putting themselves in danger. You never blamed them a day in your life.
You...
...
Isa didn't need help, only wanted your time. You look forward to it the most.
But you know there's no progression, when you help them out. All it is... is for your own sick pleasure, to be loved for a moment, to be deserving of that love. To repay their kindness at first, and then to take advantage of the fact you can. You wonder if Homura ever felt the same, or if she was better than you.)
Siffrin's thoughts are silent and many in the wake up Homura's words, and their hand leaves the flower to rest in their lap as they get comfortable. ]
Wishes are tricky things. [ Something they both know, something they can both agree on. ] There'd... never be a day, that she wouldn't sacrifice herself, and so... you were stuck. Becoming stronger each time, but never strong enough to stop the inevitable. It always, always, had to be her who was left. Who could stop it.
[ The softspoken grief of understanding lines his words, because-- yeah. Yeah. ]
Your wish... must've been a boon, for that being.