That's not what I fucking meant. Of course it matters.

[The tone of her voice shifts, genuine anger creeping into her voice.]

What doesn't matter is telling people who think I deserved to get put down like a sick fucking barn animal. I don't wanna hear people who get to go home and cast magic spells or fight for the Holy fucking Grail tell me how pathetic the one thing I'd kill for is.

...I wouldn't have done it if it was something I could get anywhere else.