[ It's good that Chara has taken this one, because Angelo feels like he needs to claw something out of his chest.
This is how it felt to be connected to Banagher. This is how it felt to feel that 'Even so' in the depths of his soul and know he would never be understood, know he would always be a dirty something beneath the soles of people who are living in a different world.
The clean sheets of his childhood are never going to return. He is stained to the last. And he wishes he could take it all down with him, but his trigger is gone. His Captain is gone.
suicidal ideation
This is how it felt to be connected to Banagher. This is how it felt to feel that 'Even so' in the depths of his soul and know he would never be understood, know he would always be a dirty something beneath the soles of people who are living in a different world.
The clean sheets of his childhood are never going to return. He is stained to the last. And he wishes he could take it all down with him, but his trigger is gone. His Captain is gone.
It's all vanished from his sight.
And he wants to disappear alongside it. ]