[ And that's all it really boils down to, at the end of the day...that Junior is loyal to those he cares about, even if those loyalties come into conflict in ways she really, really wishes didn't exist. But she knows that there is no moral high ground to stand on here, and all of this – everything that's happened here – just feels so utterly pointless.
But meeting (most of) Primrose was not pointless. Meeting Blade and Ayaka and G'raha was not pointless. Meeting Junior has meaning, she feels, and if he is loyal to her and can stay that way without the influence of other people here, perhaps Kouka still has room for him.
At least it's only her who was brought here from her world. At least she can keep her offer open, because despite her feelings, she would not be able to sleep at night if she closed her offer and others like Hickey and Hwylryn gave him the same thing, where they could use him and hurt him over and over again. At the end of the day, Junior still has a heart, even if others may not agree. ]
It's not about deserving anything. I just hate seeing people use you like this, despite everything, because I don't think you're a monster. We've all done deplorable things while we've been here.
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There will be plenty of cruelty and hardship, but there is also kindness and warmth to be found in Kouka. So if you will not hurt Yona, my bodyguards, her friends, his Majesty, then I will keep the offer open.
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[ And that's all it really boils down to, at the end of the day...that Junior is loyal to those he cares about, even if those loyalties come into conflict in ways she really, really wishes didn't exist. But she knows that there is no moral high ground to stand on here, and all of this – everything that's happened here – just feels so utterly pointless.
But meeting (most of) Primrose was not pointless. Meeting Blade and Ayaka and G'raha was not pointless. Meeting Junior has meaning, she feels, and if he is loyal to her and can stay that way without the influence of other people here, perhaps Kouka still has room for him.
At least it's only her who was brought here from her world. At least she can keep her offer open, because despite her feelings, she would not be able to sleep at night if she closed her offer and others like Hickey and Hwylryn gave him the same thing, where they could use him and hurt him over and over again. At the end of the day, Junior still has a heart, even if others may not agree. ]
It's not about deserving anything. I just hate seeing people use you like this, despite everything, because I don't think you're a monster. We've all done deplorable things while we've been here.
[ ... ]
There will be plenty of cruelty and hardship, but there is also kindness and warmth to be found in Kouka. So if you will not hurt Yona, my bodyguards, her friends, his Majesty, then I will keep the offer open.