He glances to the rolling plains; the warming wind. )
... I had asked if he wanted to kill these two. He said he didn't mind. I had asked several times, in the follow up.
( One branch, and then some, where Junior could have not to join him, allegedly. )
Sariel had grown dangerous, so I took him away. I had left G'raha to him, but...
( So that was one branch where Junior could have chosen not to kill, allegedly. )
He was the one who chose to kill Sariel. I was going to do that myself.
( Another. )
But... I don't know if these things were his choices, or ones I forced him into, little by little, by swallowing up the path behind him, by adoring him so much.
( In some ways, Junior had learned to choose between his loved ones before even Hwylryn had - and, like Hwylryn, he had found it hard to swallow the consequences that follow.
But is it a choice, if he loved Hwylryn? Is it a choice, if he wanted to do right by him?
Does love ever leave you with a choice? )
... I didn't want to do this with someone I didn't love the way I loved like Junior. ( Why couldn't you pick someone else? Ayaka said. ) I asked him. I let him choose. But I don't know.
Maybe I just thought I was letting him choose, when I understood he was answering my love with devotion.
( The right choice - by mortal standards, at least - would have been to make the informed choice for Junior.
But Hwylryn was so steeped in grief, so beyond himself with loss, he couldn't make the best choice for himself, either. His choice for Junior could not be made in the best state of mind.
He just wanted Junior to love him, and choose him, unconditionally, because that's how he feels for Junior, in turn. )
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He glances to the rolling plains; the warming wind. )
... I had asked if he wanted to kill these two. He said he didn't mind. I had asked several times, in the follow up.
( One branch, and then some, where Junior could have not to join him, allegedly. )
Sariel had grown dangerous, so I took him away. I had left G'raha to him, but...
( So that was one branch where Junior could have chosen not to kill, allegedly. )
He was the one who chose to kill Sariel. I was going to do that myself.
( Another. )
But... I don't know if these things were his choices, or ones I forced him into, little by little, by swallowing up the path behind him, by adoring him so much.
( In some ways, Junior had learned to choose between his loved ones before even Hwylryn had - and, like Hwylryn, he had found it hard to swallow the consequences that follow.
But is it a choice, if he loved Hwylryn? Is it a choice, if he wanted to do right by him?
Does love ever leave you with a choice? )
... I didn't want to do this with someone I didn't love the way I loved like Junior. ( Why couldn't you pick someone else? Ayaka said. ) I asked him. I let him choose. But I don't know.
Maybe I just thought I was letting him choose, when I understood he was answering my love with devotion.
( The right choice - by mortal standards, at least - would have been to make the informed choice for Junior.
But Hwylryn was so steeped in grief, so beyond himself with loss, he couldn't make the best choice for himself, either. His choice for Junior could not be made in the best state of mind.
He just wanted Junior to love him, and choose him, unconditionally, because that's how he feels for Junior, in turn. )